Anasua- My thoughts, Opinions and Philosophy

Expectations

2008-06-21T05:00:00.000-07:00

Most of our life is spent in expectations. when we achieve some expectations, it doesn't take long to create new ones. that's how most of my life has been. In that process, i feel i haven't given much time to enjoy the expectations that have been met, that have been fulfilled, the ecstasy and satisfaction associated with it. It's like my ego has a never-ending need to satisfy itself. Everytime a new expectation arises, i tell myself that if i achieve this, i would be proud, i would feel happy. But being in this pattern for long, i have come to the realisation that somewhere doing this, i have associated my worth and faith in my self through needs and wants. Its added more stress, more pressure, and more anticipation about the future.

This at times, feels like an obessession, and its like focusing only on that, rather than what i already have, what I have accomplished so far.

Its so hard to come out of this pattern and to focus on the present. I am in that thought process now. I think I am fortunate to have have realised this early in my life... I cant wait to enjoy life more fully and completely, and follow the path of my life as it comes along.

For those who identify with this, wake up! and realise! life is not just about winning the race, its about enjoying your journey till the end of the race...whether its work, family, relationships or your self.

Trip to Mumbai

2008-05-12T04:59:00.000-07:00

It was my first visit to Mumbai after I left for Australia earlier in 2007. It was a long flight and towards the end I could no longer wait to step into my land. What seemingly has been known to me as my home, in that moment felt unpredictable, as the flight touched its base in Mumbai..the city that never sleeps.
Everything about the city was overwhelming, although i had been familiar with it for years. speeding rickshaws, to the road-side paanipuriwalas, ever flowing traffic to the lakhs of people going about their lives, the smell of the jelabees to the latest malls...there were many things happening at the same time.
Its bizarre when I think of the number of relatives, friends and families, acquaintances I know back home, from the maid to my gulli friend, from mum's kitty party aunties to the colony folks. I know them all, and it feels the same way when I spoke to them even after a year long gap. The latest filmi gossips, to stuffing diners, visit to the unsophisticated indian habits and stories of american multinational success are all a part of the Mumbai package.
I dont know how often one would visit Mumbai but i think its important for me to visit home for fairly straightforward reasons. Its a reminder of what I aspire for. we have left our comfort zone in quest of something bigger, and if we lost our way in the middle we sure would have a reminder of the very reason of where we are today.
Its also a reminder of our secure base, our roots, our values, our family..to feel the warmth, the love and belongingness.
Mumbai presents with its own unique flavour..its a need to feel that flavour. Mumbai has the space for everyone, irrespective of whether you are rich, middle class or poor. you would always feel at home, and never be a stranger. Mumbai is surviving each day, with a hope on everyone's face. thats the hope i look for...

Introducing yourself.

2008-05-12T00:51:00.000-07:00

I have always experienced difficulty in introducing myself. Professionally or socially I have always struggled with it. One might think, why is it such a challenge. it might sound stupid to a lot of them. but yeah, i always wondered about how can i describe myself and my experience in those couple of minutes, in those few words.. its not about what others would think of me, but its about not being able to package myself in that moment when i have to introduce myself.
I have been tossing with this question for a couple of years, but i have gained some recent insight into it while i was reading eckhart tolle's 'new earth'. in page 28, he writes the following.
" The 'I' embodies the primordial error, a misperception of who you are, an illusory sense of identity. what you usually refer to when you say 'I' is not who you are. By a monstrous act of reductionism, the infinite depth of who you are is confused with a sound produced by vocal cords or the thought of 'I' in your mind and whatever the 'I' has identifed with".

It sure might sound complex when you read the first time, but when i read that again and again, and again, i found meaning in what he explains as the monstrous act of reductionism...introductions typically require you to reduce youself in a few words, and thats all what you are known to someone who is unknown.
with every passing day of our life we are adding something to us as a person, its a different you every day, with new thoughts, new information, new vision, new hopes, new emotions. bottomline is: you are more than what you think you are, more than 'I'.

My first post

2008-04-24T00:46:00.000-07:00

This is my first post and i am fairly lost as to what i want to say. i know for sure that i dont want to sound too philosophical, but I want to share an element of fun, entertainment with my viewers.
here i am today, at a university library working my ass out on one of my assignments, thinking to myself when would this phase of cracking my mind into education would end. i sure have spent most of my life in books. culturally, it was so ingrained in our heads to seek education, to gain that knowlege. but after so many years i hav realised that learning is limitless. we are going to be learning something or the other for the rest of our lives. on that note, i have crashed even more now on completing this assignment. ohh gosshh!!