Most of our life is spent in expectations. when we achieve some expectations, it doesn't take long to create new ones. that's how most of my life has been. In that process, i feel i haven't given much time to enjoy the expectations that have been met, that have been fulfilled, the ecstasy and satisfaction associated with it. It's like my ego has a never-ending need to satisfy itself. Everytime a new expectation arises, i tell myself that if i achieve this, i would be proud, i would feel happy. But being in this pattern for long, i have come to the realisation that somewhere doing this, i have associated my worth and faith in my self through needs and wants. Its added more stress, more pressure, and more anticipation about the future.
This at times, feels like an obessession, and its like focusing only on that, rather than what i already have, what I have accomplished so far.
Its so hard to come out of this pattern and to focus on the present. I am in that thought process now. I think I am fortunate to have have realised this early in my life... I cant wait to enjoy life more fully and completely, and follow the path of my life as it comes along.
For those who identify with this, wake up! and realise! life is not just about winning the race, its about enjoying your journey till the end of the race...whether its work, family, relationships or your self.
